A Little Bit of Closure

Can today really only be Tuesday? I had to sit through 4 days of training last week and 2 so far this week. 3 to go this week and then another 3 next week. Seriously? Is this much training truly necessary? Wait, I can answer that---no. It is ridiculous. I have already previously gotten every bit of training that they have forced me to sit through so far. As mentioned before, couldn't Dallas ISD spend its money more wisely? I think, yes.

Other than that, things are going fairly swimmingly. Kids are doing well. I am not overly stressed out; a bit crabby, maybe, but that is to be expected. It's hot here now, but I hardly notice it, as I am inside all day during the week and sitting in the pool on the weekend. I am reading a great book right now--Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett, so every chance I get during training, I pull it out. It has made the time go a bit faster.

Went out on Friday and was happy to head home at 10:30. In fact, really wished I hadn't wasted the mascara and cute outfit at all, which is a huge milestone for me. Got some closure on a loose-ended relationship, which made me happy. I don't quite understand, why, even at this age, men can't be adults. At this point in my life, I'm not interested in wasting my time dating for the sake of dating, and I don't see why a guy would be, either. It's hard enough to make things work when you are totally into someone, but when you are lukewarm or totally cold about someone, it's complete torture. Being single is a much better alternative, in my opinion. And guys act like you are going to die if they tell you the truth. Hardly. I would much rather know that they aren't feelin' it than drag things out. Chances are, I'm not feelin' it, either. Like this guy that I finally talked to this weekend--we went out a couple of times. We had fun both times. Interesting conversation; good beer drinking; no romantic spark. I knew this, and quite frankly, I didn't feel it, either. I was more trying to give things a chance because a) he was totally hot and 2) I was trying to listen to the rationale that it's not always fireworks at first sight (but honestly, mostly a and he was smart, which I am totally not used to in a man). Anyway. We went out. We had fun. I knew he wasn't feelin' it. Then, I hear from him sporadically when I changed my status on Facebook or Myspace to "feeling bummed" or "in Florida" which was about twice in 2 months. So, in an act of flushing out all the uselessness in my life, I deleted him from my friend lists, figuring he had only contacted me to be polite and, quite frankly, tired of staring at his face and reading his updates every time I logged on. Immediately, I get an email on Facebook from him: "Hey, you deleted me. Are we not friends anymore? blah, blah, blah." Really? Seriously? You care that I deleted you? I couldn't even believe that he noticed I had done it. And if he had really cared, I'm sure he would have called. Or at least been polite when I offered to cook him dinner or been honest with me about his feelings then. So, Saturday, I misdialed him. He called me back on Sunday. He finally admitted to having no romantic feelings for me and asked me why we couldn't be friends. Doesn't he understand that if he had been up front with me after we went out, I would have been happy to be his friend? Doesn't he understand that his ignoring the situation is the whole reason I have no desire to pretend like we are friends? I'm sure Mr. Hotness has girls fawning all over him all the time, which is fine. I'm just not one of those girls.